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hey people.

teacher's day today, didn't expect it to be so fun(: saw manymany people & did alot, quite exciting.

so i woke up at 5.40am, okay i should not complain there were people who woke at at 4plus, and then reached sch at 6.15. stoned around with kw and watched the first few runners start. wahseh they were sprinting the whole round can, i bet they just wanted to faster get it done so that they could get out of the dark hahaha. then went to set up my stall, which turned out to be the only time i was really there anyways hehs.

& turned out we were so enthu we decided to run more. hahaha so kw & i ran 10rounds together, not continuously duh, and it felt quite good actually. running early in the morning is really quite good. then ran another 2 rounds with the team, bet we pissed msleong off when we just ran off with mrlim hehs. and i just found out i have two blisters on my toes which i just thought would be a good idea to burst, didn't turn out to be such a good idea after all cause alot of crap came spilling out & now one toe hurts =/

and then stayed back to eat pizza! hahaha. then everybody started going off to their primary schools, ohmy i feel kinda bad now that i didn't go back but ohwells, i bet all they would talk about was my height. bleah.

and then crapped & gossiped abit, okay no, alot, with the ex-seniors. enjoyed that alot, hahaha. ohmy okay, suddenly miss them alot. hahaha. then after that they stayed back to play together for abit, while tammy ngteng ann & i went off to tampines mall to get jl's present. yes, tampines mall. all the way on the other side of the world. it might as well have been atlantis to me.

watched hairspray, it was kinda good but my eyes were dying, contacts were drying up, & my mood was rather bad. but the movie was good, only bad thing was that ohmygosh what big arms you have. okay i'm being mean, there's nothing wrong with being fat but seriously, even though the movie was all about how you should stick with your dreams even if other people think you're fat, they still looked like whales. & john travolta was disgusting, sorry dude you were wayy too gay. but michelle pfeiffer (sp?) was cool, she's good as a bitch. hahaha.

okay, i'm gonna go watch a walk to remember now. (:
-nette.

okay dude you are pissing the shit out of me. seriously. stop being so damn sarcastic, i'm not in the mood to entertain you. i thought it was fun, & i don't really care if you don't.
hey people.

finally, the last studying day of term3 is over. it couldn't have passed anymore slowly, but when the bell rang it was like, whoa. it's been 8 months alr? wow.

then stayed back to discuss tmr & sat & msia for abit, then helped out with the deco. yes, the big big pink heart you see tomorrow on the banner? i helped with that :D cool ehs. hahaha i knew everybody was going jeanette why the hell are you painting. and the reason's cause dione looked so poor thing & she obviously couldn't finish everything by herself so i decided to stay back & help her.

then realised it was like 4.30 alr, so i went to the canteen to have my late lunch, & did english. & waited for daddy express to come fetch my big fat lazy ass home. hehs.

and then there was this bunch of lower sec people blaring music in the canteen, wanted to go over and smash their phone but nah, i just shoved earphones in and continued my work. but before i could i heard when you're gone, & something tightened. realised i haven't heard that song in a long while, but it's still so damn nice. and it just had to be the when you walk away i count the steps that you take part. wonderful. day5, no, day6, is ending, but at least i'm surviving. (:

okay. shall go youtube now.
-nette.

it's a love/hate thing with that video.
Nyeh. This morning started off the worst way it ever could. Woke up at 649 and rusheddd down. Got to sch, told kw i could feel that i was gonna cry today. Bingo.

Stoned around, very aimlessly. Almost cried.
Then morning assembly, saw her, disgusted. Wished she would just back away from whereever i was, held back my tears really badly. On the way back to class, rushed away myself. Still had the cheek to talk to kw. Wth. Then, back into class, all i felt was like cry, cry, cry. But like control, control, control. Then for once, i thanked god mr khoo came in. Felt much better when i just concentrated on math.

But thankfully for all those ppl around me, thanks for caring plus those notes and stuffs. And dionne, your imaginative story! Sorry tablepartner, kinda dao-ed you the whole day. Bad mood plus hot sun didnt help during jogging.

During recess kinda got my mood going better for grace, Happy Birthday! Sorry for no present and no cake. Though you said you arent sad, i feel really bad!

Stoned back to class and things got a weeee bit better. Talked crap, had fnn coursework. Cant believe we stayed in that com lab which felt like a freezer until 4. Had chem spa revision and was starving. Went off to pp macs with line, dionne, peishi! Ate like a pig and i laughed madly like for the first time of the day. Laughed like alot alot. But what else to expect, with dionne and line the 2 most rubbish/retarded/spastic ppl in class? Thanks!
I guess i needed that.

I feel like sleeping now. And i dont wanna wake up early tmr.

seeya pigs
,merilyn

I do not have a freaking problem, get that clear will you.
I hate tm2. What's the freaking problem that it has to cause me so much troubleeeee.

Urrgh.

And today, target not met. Poor kw, cheer up!

Not in the mood for anything now. Suck shit.

seeya pigs
,merilyn

Nyeh, today sucked terribly. Someone's a total turn-off.

But the other times spent on thinking and talking about ___ were pure fun. Haha! I cant stand it, the thought of you makes me smile to myself. Hahaha.

And korwoong, i told you i told you! I had a feeling it was gonna be it. See! : ( 2 times alr. : (
When will it ever be my turn! Unfairrrrrr. Stupid girl. Jealous.

I'm so not looking forward to school. (normal)

Nyeh.

seeya pigs
,merilyn
& i just love how i always seem to be able to ruin everything.

there you go, photos of prettaye us.

-nette.

& i edit this post.

okay i sense insecurity seeping in like a plague. ):
go away, shoo.

i do not like my mood swings. at all. they are not funny they make my life unpredictable.
okay i like unpredictable but, this is in a baddd way.

i do not wanna think about anything anymore i just wanna do homework cause i think that makes the most sense to me right now hahahahahaha shit i am a pure nerd.

ignore my ranting please. (:
i'm content to just be something.
& it's still staying there, like it's glued. & that means alot. (:
andand! i really don't know how to takecare of myself. hehs. i'm supp to be a pampered kid rmb? hahaha.

random:
\my new contact lense case is kinda cool, it cleans my contacts for me! yay!
\steven gerrard is so divorcing his wife for me :D
\scandal your head lah avery.

-nette.

I'm totally smitten, I think you're cute. (:
I'm on a hardcore diet, you know why? Just for you(:
I smile myself to sleep, just the thought of you(:
I like, you there way you are, no matter what others utter about you(:
I like your high socks, tupperware bottle, your botak head, your cute no branded haversack, your tucked in jersy, and definitely, your _____ arms(:
I even grew to appreciate hot shorts(:

You've got me head over heels(:

I like, and very very much want you now! ahhhh(: He's like a breathtaker:/
For those who think I'm weird, Iam so not.
You've added a new excitement to my life!


也许神的安排,让我终於遇见你!

我很愿意,把心快讯给你
你让我把对爱的迷,变成决心(:

caroline(:

Hello, today was a really happy plus sad plus a little angry day!

Firstly, i kinda went on an adidas spree and got myself a new bag and water bottle. No more ugly Cafe21 plastic bottle, haha!
But sadly, i'm reduced to a pauper now. $_$

But, still :DDDDDDD

Had 2.4 run, i think i'm the only sec3 idiot who hasnt taken napfa. :/ then after awhile we had our fnn execution. gosh, everyone was freaking tireddd. i washed the stuff till my back almost break. everyone became hysterical. Haha. We were so tired at the 1st floor,we decided to fly up to the 3rd level. then 1, 2, 3, Jump! and all of us jump till so synchronised it was quite funny. Hahah!

Cabbed down to j8, like finally! Ate with line, kw, haoyee. Then went to coffee bean to study. Okay, we kinda did not, unproductive! :/ Then then then Hsin yi and Zhen na passed by, i swear caroline made me laugh till I REALLY CANNOT TAKE IT. i think i laughed non-stop for at least 15-20 min. Plus that stupid kw and her stupid actions and comments. Ohmygosh. Ahh it was unbearable ohkay, like i was slamming the table at some point. HAHAH. Oh and there was this stupid couple behind getting all close and stuff, kinda irritated them. Eeyur.

Shall not elaborate on the sad/angry parts.

Byebye then, gotta be off to do some chinese and revise chem!
Hope tmr'll be a a even better day. :D

Oh and Melissa, that's really sweet of you! I'm touched! Haha i'm thankful for you being around too. Much loves. Been through alot tgt, glad that i can be of help when you're feeling down! :]
<3

seeya pigs
,merilyn!
To: Merilyn Loh

Thankyou for being there for me always! Though its just a call, it made me feel tons better :D Just that th phone went cranky just now tsk. You're a true blue friend & i'm thankful for that. For this 2 years plus, i know i can always count on you. I'm okay already, i really am. Just pmsy & so wanna bomb pple away (i'm sure you get what i mean, right?)
We'll be strong, okay? Just read your looong post & you seem sad and stressed too :( Cheer up! The tough times will end soon, tmr's cwB will be fine i'm sure. I'll give you moral support!
And we'll always be there to jiayou each other, whether or not it's during trng or on any other thing. So, you know that you're not alone no matter what.

You can count on me, for sure
That's what friends are for

i lub lub you ba biu (:

PS: Trng is so so much more fun with Charlotte the stupid pudding, Caroline & you!

From,
Melissa (biasber!)

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Time to do my yyw, if not i'll get zero soon.
No more slacking!
ohmyy. this blog's getting soo emo. cheer up people, it's not the end of the world! everything will be okay. after all this has passed we'll look back & go, "ohmy why on earth were we so emo?" and then we'll laugh about this. so, yeah. we always have to endure the bad stuff to get to the good parts. (: emo also we emo together, so after all this we'll all be happy together too :D & i so totally understand whatever you all posted, seriously. jiayou peeps, WE'RE ALL IN THIS TOGEHTER WHEEE~!

okay i have alot of things running through my head now. i shall list them out in pointform then, my fingers are way too cold for me to spend time elaborating.
1. tmr got dental. fri got physics test. sat nehneh bday. & i haven't even asked my parents yet. sorry, i ask them asap okay?
2. hot water can really help you when you're having a headache beyond all splitting headaches. which i was. i wanna get well nowwww. ):
3. MALAYSIA TRIP MALAYSIA TRIP MALAYSIA TRIP :DD
4. why is it so damn cold.
5. to whom it may concern: i mean every single word i say. every one. take it or leave it, i've alr said it. (:
6. i'm tired. i'm gonna take ten thousand panadols & sleep my lazy ass off & be dead to the world. yay.
7. i love my cca. & everybody in it. (:
8. i cannot wait for tcher's day. cannot cannot cannot.

okay. i'm done for now.
-mrsgerrard.
Damn, i told you. Today sucked, quite terribly.

Kinda lost control after seeing some of them cry. Dont know why, the emotions inside just started rushing out. Cried rather badly, something which i've not done in a long time.

Gosh, i'm srsly gonna put in extra affort for maths and chem. I've let down myself far too many times. I guess all i can do now is buck uppppppp.! No point crying over spilt milk, yeah. Since i've kinda like released all the stress bottled through the post and that crying. Time to be stronger, Ahniu!

Thanks Tammy for the tag, :]
and to the anon, this feels like a prank, like some junior or someone i know? :/ haha. who are you?

Tomorrow's execution for fnn courseworkB, hope everything goes smoothly. Wish me luck. :D

seeya pigs
,merilyn
Hello world.

Gosh, the world seems sad or sth. Class was in quite a chaotic situation. :/ didnt know what to do/feel. And like people around all look sad! Chantal, if you're sad pls cheer up, cos you're not the usual bubbly Chantal i see in class! Charlotte, i believe you'll see improvement in the yucky tests and exams, i know you know we all study. Work hard tgt k! And your bday will be a happy one! At least, i promise you.

Melissa, things'll be fine at the end of the day! Remember that day on the phone, you told me to "always look on the bright side of life", now it's your turn! Whatever it is, dont forget i'm always around yeah.
:(

CHEER UP WORLD.

and for me, i'm just plain tired. tired of everything. studies, tests. trng kinda killed me and my body's aching like mad. tired from pure lack of sleep. i told you i need more sleep than others. tired of math. tired of the lessons. tired of the many many homework/assignments. tired of comparing. tired of not doing well. tired of people around. tired of everything irritating.

i know i know, i'm not the only one around who's tired. who isn't? just let me rant.

well, failed chem. dont know if i'm immune to failures alr or what. but thinking about how i would only be satisfied with A1s/2s last year, i realised everything's changed, alot.
kinda irritating when people around goes on about this and that about how bad the tests were, and there, i failed. Hello, sensitivity okay? not referring to anything in particular though. gosh, thats one thing that reallyyyyyyyyyy turns me off. :(

i'm mood-swinging alot, these days.

my studies suck. it sucks so much that sometimes i just wanna throw everything away. i only have myself to blame. well maybe, some teachers.

merilyn, tell me what effort have you put in at all this year?

"i guess, none".

seriously, i am not trying to blow my own trumpet or what say you. i used to look forward so, so much to getting back tests and have that 'Yay' feeling that i've done well. well, i did relatively well.
i swear, for this whole year, there has yet to be a single test that has given me that feeling. give it a count, i guess one test gave me an A1? i even doubt that count, perhaps there isnt. no fail also equals to a borderline pass.
i feel so helpless sometimes, i just wanna give up. i dont dare think about anything further than end-of-years. i think i even am afraid of tomorrow coming, bringing nothing else but disappointment?
even chinese, which i'm super duper confident in, seems to be turning its back on me.
i was proud of my level position last year, i think i've jolly well sunken to the bottom now.
i thought i was smart. at least i felt smart.
gosh. where is the smart-er me? :(

people around perhaps dont know how screwed things are right now. take my words seriously. you really dont. and i'm scared. terrified.
and for all i know, i'll be returned Amath test paper soon, which, for sure i know, wont surprise me by just letting me know i have another failure.

i'm terribly sick of everything. tired.
procrastination, distractions, whatever. saying all these kinda not serve any help. i suck soooo much. :(

i think i'm gonna stay up real late tonight, at least finishing up whatever i really should have done by now. i'm not gonna let myself just slip off to sleep like any other day.
i cant stand myself. :(

I'm so sorry people, this post is freaking long.

Goodbye world
,merilyn


I should stop being so emo cuz it annoys me. i love mtv luh.
Mel
YES THIS NIGHT IS GOING PERFECTLY KEKEX.

MAN CITY JUST BEAT MAN U 1-0 WOOHOOO I LOVE THIS.

AND NOW FOR CHELSEA TO GET THEIR ASSES KICKED BY LIVERPOOL, AND TONIGHT WILL BE MORE THAN PERFECT HAHAHAHHAA.

-NETTE. loveya! (:
With you not around it's a little bit more then i can stand
And all my tears they keep running down my face
Why did you turn away?

-

The Unbreakable Bond That Is So Strong

Hello this is a pointless post filled with meaningful meaningful lyrics. Gah my yyw's not done. Yet. Omg but i can't bring myself to do it.
Can't wait for school, i really can't :D
Slacky weekend, full of emotions though
Life's so vulnerable, my neighbour's dad suddenly died of heart attack last week :(
Poor neighbour, i feel really bad for him.

It's So Beautiful It Makes You Wanna Cry



Yoohoo.








okay, i'm feeling alot better today, though the weather hasn't helped at all. it's freezing cold, i've been wearing a sweater the whole day. but i've gotten better, not sniffing as much. headache's gone, cough's gone, and i'm almost well alr, i think. BUT! someone isn't! hahahaha. therefore, i win the competition! (: andand hence, you owe me a forfeit! kekex. and here i state the forfeit: a hug! please and thank you very much. (: takecare okay, don't fall sick anymore. loveya!

okay & my mum just ordered me into her room to eat medicine. bleah. love pills, hate syrup. syrup stinks beyond imagination. =/ and i can feel my calf on the verge of cramping cause it's so cold it feels like 24/7 aircon and that's not funny.

there'll be no time you won't find me there
cause i will always be there
you will always have all my love. (:

-nette.
We used to have this figured out
We used to breathe without a doubt
When nights were clear you were the first star that i'd see
We used to have this under control
We never thought we used to know
At least there's you
And at least there's me
Can we get this back?
Can we get this back?
To how it used to be
(Chris Daughtry, Used To)


Even though Nette probably posted the lyrics of this song before, i'll post it again haha.

Every time our eyes meet
This feeling inside me
Is almost more than I can take
Baby when you touch me
I can feel how much you love me
And it just blows me away
I've never been this close to anyone or anything
I can hear your thoughts
I can see your dreams

I don't know how you do what you do
I'm so in love with you
It just keeps getting better
I want to spend the rest of my life
With you by my side
Forever and ever
Every little thing that you do
Baby, I'm amazed by you

The smell of your skin
The taste of your kiss
The way you whisper in the dark
Your hair all around me
Baby you surround me
You touch every place in my heart
Oh, it feels like the first time, every time
I want to spend the whole night in your eye

Every little thing that you do
I'm so in love with you
It just keeps getting better
I want to spend the rest of my life
With you by my side
Forever and ever
Every little thing that you do
Baby, I'm amazed by you
(Lonestar, Amazed)


-
:D As strong as ever, nothing will bring us down
Sorry for making you cry. I'm glad we're okay now, no more sadness okay? We'll always be happy. i love you!

I've been replaying this two songs for the past hour. Faith Cheah sent me Amazed yesterday, and we kept re playing & re re playing it. Because it's too sweet to be true. Yesterday school time was alright. Recess was hilarious!
Had fun at the rice stall in the canteen. My god i laughed till i nearly died, i really did. And so did Caroline. Poor Merilyn's sick, hope you're feeling better. Take care okay!

Hui xin, if you're reading this, I wanna say Thankyou :D

For the support you've given me since the start of this year. We were so excited to be in the same class, i remembered. All the toilet breaks after every single lessons, recess dates, our tone-deaf singing, studying for geog together and the both of us ended up scoring the highest. The craziness we have in school with the others! (Ngteng Nair Nura Linxin Faith) You were always there to hear my troubles, and you'll always make the problems go away. And the little present, it may be small but it means alot. (I'll never forget 'Negg'! HAHA)

You're one of the best friends i've ever had in Cedar.


I'm off to start on my Cheeena homework.
Love love love
Mel

I'll cherish you, if it's the last thing i'll do. This i promise you.
and all i know is,
you've got to give me everything
and nothing less cause
you know i gave you all of me

i give you everything that i am
i'm handing over everything that i've got
cause i really wanna have a true love
don't ever wanna have to go and give you up
stay up till four in the morning
and the tears are pouring
and i wanna make it worth the fight
what have we been doing for all this time?
baby if we're gonna do it, come on do it right.

i feel sick now, i'm like sniffing my nose off. i won't be surprised if it just falls off tomorrow, i can't feel it anyways. bleah. ohwells, at least it's not as if i'm totally dying, i'm still quite okay. (: hope i'll be better tomorrow, or i'll have to spend another day sneezing. then i'll bet my nose really falls off.
-nette.
because i'm walking down in this one-way street, and it's too late to turn back, too late to turn away. because i know the destination won't be the one i want. because your promises are to me what nicotine patches are to a veteran drug addict. because i hate switching the com on, hate reading your blog, hate coming online, but yet i still do, and i don't know why. because i gave you my everything, and you slapped me across the face with it. because stars can never shine as brightly as the moon. because i'm getting tired of everything, because i'm getting stressed. because i'm losing my focus. because i used to be able to not see my toes at all, but now no matter how hard i try, i still can see my feet. because i'll always only mean that much. because i'm not good enough. because i hate listening to that song, it cuts too much. because i love listening to that song, its exactly how i feel. because i finally understand the feeling behind love songs. because after strike three, you're out. because time's all you've got. because trust does not equal to hope. because i'm hanging only by the thinnest of threads, yet you don't seem to want to pull me back. because i'm getting tired of lying to myself. because it seems that nothing will ever be as before. because i don't even know if there was a before. because i don't know where i stand. because i don't know where we are. because sometimes i don't know what you're thinking. because sometimes i feel like i'm just being paranoid. because i'm not paranoid, i'm wary. because this feels like it'll never end. because i love my emo songs. because i wanna keep on trying, but it's taking alot of effort. because you aren't really helping. because you are, but it's not enough. because i ask for too much. because you'd rather concentrate on others. because you'd better do something before i just walk away. because i can't walk away without knowing what went wrong. because i always feel like i made it go wrong. because it's been coming off alot lately, because i have to always check if it's still there, because i wonder why. because my heart's not that strong to begin with. because by nature, i am cynical. because i know.

because. i love you too much to hate you.

-nette.
Amaths test; OVER

Yay it's time to rest! Gosh i've been real tired lately. And i've to do Yyw later grr!
Lunch was great today, i love you guys.

Tomorrow self-train!


Seems like all the little things that matter so much to me, doesn't seem to matter to you as much
Seems like all that i've anticipated, is just one sided. it hurts.

Mel
the english premier league has started.
again.

and in 15 min i'm gonna be seeing my hubby on tv :D:D:D:D
-nette.

iam bored.
MUGGGGGGGGGGGGGG):

okay i think i cant blog for quite some time, and no going out (even for lunching) from now till the end of eoy :/ oh gosh.
huanhuanai is like the best show on earth, it makes me smile to myself, just like how when i think about. _____! haha! he is so not a martian. he is the APPLE OF MY EYEEEEEE:D

okay i think iam a crazy woman nowadays, i can go oh so high about ____. ahhhhhhh, right ahniu? whoooo. damn love. chao love. super cute. super , CUTE! beyond description.. oh anyway, leo ku is super cute STILL. his album is coming out soon! damn excited!

i scared. a maths test damn scary :/
dont wanna fail agn.

i feel like being mushy today . ahaha, too much huanhuanai?

when you feel like the world has nothing to look foward to, when you feel as though theres no one to lean on, look back, and you'll see meeeeeeeeeeee!
you kept my heart open just for you, for some particular reasons,
you're the queeeeeeeen of my heart.
want to know why? becauseeeeeeeeeee...
you seem like a plank of wood to others, but in front of me, you appear as, someone so warm.
i see the change in our friendship.
from the coldest stares, the most unfeeeling words, those ignorant comments, and, showers of wet blankets too.
to, the most beautiful look in your eyes, the sweetest phrases, the most caring texts, and the warmest actions.
i like it when iam special.
because to me, you are the only, and forever, best thing in my liife.
what more can i ask, right?
ahh, damn love you.
MWAHHHHH <3>
who says iam yours, YOU THEN IS MINE.

<3 whoooooo

10:18:00 PM -

hey babes. (:

so, had trng tday. heng it was in the morning and not in the afternoon cause at like 2plus it turned really hot, like blazing hot. but i was at macs studying, so the sun didn't really bother me in fact i was kinda freezing there. hahaha. and i actually finished studying bio WHEEEE~! just gotta read some notes and flip through the tb again before i'm done. yay me.

ok (but) i haven't touched amaths yet so i'm partially screwed. heng it's on thurs whew.

hmm i shall name a few songs here, they have special meanings hehs. go figure. (:
- shape of my heart (backstreet boys)
- that's when i'll stop loving you (nsync)
- i could get used to this (the veronicas)
- hug (dbsk)
- canon in d by any good pianist heh i think everyone knows why i chose this.
ok there are alot more but suddenly i got utterly bored with this whole thing.

i know i'm not there enough
but that's gonna change
cause i'm coming back, to show you that
i'm keeping the promise i made

yeah we've had our ups and downs
but we've always worked them out
babe am i ever glad we got this far now
still i'm lying here tonight
wishing i was by your side
cause when i'm not there enough
nothing feels right
so i'm coming back, to show you that
i'll love you the rest of my life

whatever it takes
i'm not gonna break the promise i made

when i'm with you
i'll make every second count
cause i miss you
whenever you're not around. (:

this is why i love love LOVE faber drive. (: dude you have a fantastic music library.

-nette.

9:23:00 PM -

Tell me
How do I breathe
Without you here by my side?
How will I see
When your love brought me to the light?
Where do I go
When your hearts where I laid my head?
When your not with me
How do I breathe
How do I breathe?


-
It's been a longgg time since i've blogged! So here i am :D

Woke up this morning at 548am with th most unimaginable headache ever, my god felt so much like dying. So i slept in and it felt better after that.
Sorry teammies couldn't go for trng today, hope trng went good for y'all though.

I think i'm gonna turn into a big, fat couch potato soon. All i've been doing today is lazing around, watching teeveee and alot of sleeping. Oh and of course, snacking on all the junkfood i can lay my hands on. Dam thankful for the long weekend, seriously need to catch up on much needed rest. All the late night mugging has turned me into a panda. It's been a yucky week with lots of work, boring lessons and 2 tests. Next week's gna be just as bad, i swear.

Went grocery shopping with family not long ago. loves!
All good things come to an end. Tomorrow's Saturday already aah. Patsay @ 8am omg sianz.

Movies that i've watched this week: Disturbia, The Simpsons.
Disturbia was really unexpectedly nice! Me c mer were grabbing each other hands during the last few moments like non stop scariness. Mygod it's really exciting & the killer is fugly.

The Simpsons is ridiculous, seriously. And hilarious :D

Bored to the core, listening to Daddy playing the guitar. I don't want to study!Left yyw under the table. I don't know what to do, i don't want to do anything. I need a break, now. I want to migrate to Alaska. I hate school like don't know what.

Was thinking about 3/o's Colour's performance, i love 3/o i love love love. So i thought of that song babadada babadada babadada!

But movin' on
She's got the cutest laugh I ever heard
And we can be on the phone for three hours
Not sayin' one word
And I would still cherish every moment
And when I start to build my future she's the main component
Call it dumb call it luck call it love or whatever you call it but
Everywhere I go I keep her picture in my wallet like here
"Cupid's Chokehold"


& 9 Aug 'o7 is love.

MEL MEL MEL.

Wednesday, August 8, 2007

10:23:00 PM -

saw someone really unexpected today.
didn't expect you to change so much, but i guess that's what happens. even though we were close so for short a while, and ended our friendship on such a bad note, i thought that you'd become.. better? and that that was kinda like a lesson i suppose. hahaha. i thought wrong.
i wonder if you know the impact you've made. if i had the same impact. i thought you were just a small bug that happened to step into my path, but no, you've done much more than that. and i just realised that, i haven't exactly learnt my lesson have i? haha.

and it hurts to want everything and nothing at the same time
i want what's yours and i want what's mine
i want you
but i'm not giving in this time

you're in everyone i see
so tell me
do you see me?

random: michelle branch has nice songs. really nice. and faber drive rocks.
-nette.

D :

Ahh, i'm damn sad now. Cos i'm really hungry, but there's no food for me to eat at home. All just cos i was to lazy to get my dinner outside just now. Boohoo.

And i was locked out of my own house i almost fell asleep cos my stupid sister was sleeping and i forgot to bring my keys. Plus i got scolded. Yeeeee.

And secondly, i cant freaking find the white jersey pants. Damn it luhhhh.

Didnt go to school, fell quite sick after yesterday, i swear it was hell trying to fall asleep. : (
I blew my nose like 47628354 times already, but it's still running. Suck shits. I think i'm gonna have trouble getting a good sleep agn.
Line and brat, get well soon too!

Caroline freaked me out by having a sudden tummyache/want to vomit plus sorethroat. 0_0
Dont be so sad lei, Cheer up! Things will get better! Chander love you.



















when i go to heaven, i'll ask You
if this really was necessary, if i really had to go through this, if there was no other way.
and i know, You'd tell me, it's cause i had to realise on my own, where to put You in my life.
that You should always be first, and no where else.
love You dear God.
-nette.
love can do many many things.

it can tear you apart, it can break your heart, it can eat you up inside and make it seem as if nothing can ever be this painful. it can hurt a thousand times worse than the worst slap you've ever gotten, it can make you ache and it'll seem like you'd never stop aching. the pain & hurt it can cause can make you numb, but you'd always know that it will always be there.

then again, love can heal. it can make the most painful thought disappear, it can drive away the most hurting feelings. it can make your life seem perfect again, even if only for a while. it can make you smile, make you laugh, make you feel like well hey, nothing can bring you down now. it causes you to smile to yourself in the most unglam manner on the mrt, or get so engrossed in your thoughts that you totally forget the world around you.

and you know what, love always has its ups and downs. it might make you feel like giving up, but in the end, under all the feelings and horrible thoughts, you know you could never. and that's why i love you.

haha ok i'm in a sweet sweet mood now. (:
going out to celebrate the grandfather's birthday later, eat eat eat later become fat then cannot run again on mon =/
-nette.
Relient K - Must Have Done Something Right

[Verse 1]
We should get jerseys cause we make a great team
But yours would look better than mine, cause you're outta my league
And I know that it's so cliche to tell you that everyday
I spend with you is the new best day of my life
Everyone watching us just turns away with disgust
It's Jealously, they can see that we've got it going on

[Pre-chorus]
And I'm racking my brain for a new improved way
To let you know your more to me than what I know how to say
You're OK with the way this is going to be
This is going to be the best thing we've ever seen

[Chorus]
If anyone can make me a better person you could
All I gotta say is I must've done something good
I came along one day and you rearranged my life
All I gotta say is I must've done something right
I must've done something right

[Verse 2]
Maybe I'm just lucky cause it's hard to believe
Believe that somebody like you'd end up with someone like me
And I know that it's so cliche to talk about you this way
But I'll push all my inhibitions aside
It's so very obvious to everyone watching us
That we have got something real good going on

[Pre-chorus]
And I'm racking my brain for a new improved way
To let you know your more to me than what I know how to say
You're OK with the way this is going to be
This is going to be the best thing we've ever seen

[Chorus x3]
If anyone can make me a better person you could
All I gotta say is I must've done something good
I came along one day and you rearranged my life
All I gotta say is I must've done something right
I must've done something right

:]

seeya pigs
,merilyn.

Oh man, the rush to mug is really sinking in. School/results have been like shit since the start of this year. Gotta really do something. Gosh.

I shall make myself say bye to the blog and friendster and what-nots soon.
STUDY. STUDY. STUDY.

D :

Bye people, back to coursework (i hate!) and mugging chem and cheena/math hw.
How sad.

You're not making yourself scarce from my mind.

seeya pigs
,merilyn!
haha ok this is like completely random esp cause it's so late but hey i'm doing my hw ohkay and i like the quiet ok i can sleep in tomorrow yay!

anyways. i think i have the world's most horrible mood swings because i'm cheerful again. and i'm laughing now. hahaha come come, ask me why! (:

heh. don't tell you. come ask me yourself kekex.
-nette(:
i wonder how many things you're hiding from me.
seriously.
we argue and patch up and whatever so many times until we get so tired that we don't even bother telling each other whether we're pissed or sad or angry or not.
we're hiding so so much stuff from each other, that it's like, whatever happened to 'i'll tell you everything'?
whatever happened to 'i can't hide stuff from you.'?
whatever happened to 'i trust you. alot.'?
whatever happened to us? ):

i still care. and i really don't wanna give up. but it seems like nothing ever gets settled permenantly.

i hope you'll tell me i'm seriously reading this all wrong. am i?
-nette.
ohmy. listening to amazed by lonestar on radioblog now, suddenly got unbearably emotional. it's a really nice song, someone send it to me please i beg you.

i don't know how you do what you do
i'm so in love with you
it just keeps getting better
i want to spend the rest of my life
with you by my side
forever and ever
every little thing that you do
baby, i'm amazed by you

i'm in an unbelievably cheerful mood now, which is quite good actually, considering how everybody's feeling nowadays. be happy people, nothing can be that bad, especially if you have friends by your side always. chin up yes? (: and thanks for your smile kw, it really helped today. bright yellow spas face that immediately brought my mood up at exactly 12.20pm today.

everything seems rather stable now, hope it'll stay like that. hahaha ok who am i kidding, it probably won't. but i'm thankful for now, at least it's ok now, before the storm comes i shall prepare for it. just, hopefully it'll be a small one, not a thunderstorm. i don't know how much more i can take. holding an umbrella and shielding myself won't be as efficient as standing under a complete shelter when the rain comes.

hahaha wells, at least i have friends by my side. love every single one of them(: don't worry people, i'll let you come under my shelter when you're in a storm. you you you you you you you and all of you too! :D

-nette.
Oh man, f. Everyone just shut up luh.

,merilyn
Hey people.

Was feeling normal all the while till suddenly i heard Radios In Heaven, I'm starting to feel emo. I'm really afraid those i love and hold dear to my heart might leave me one day. Particularly one person, i love you alot alot. I dont know how life's gonna be like if you're gone one day.

I'm almost breaking out in tears already.

I keep telling myself to do this and that, but it doesnt seem like I'm fulfilling any of them. I'm sorry. Life passes us by, i dont want to be left only with regrets one day.

Okay there was just a rush of emotions within.

Back to more normal stuffs..

Korwoong! It's really nice to talk to you everyday, about anything under the sun! Esp when it's related to _ _ _ _ _ _ _s. And stuffs which maybe i can only tell you. I need you to be my motivation to study and work hard man. Pass me some of it when maybe you get it from qiming? And once again, I've let myself down. What a disappointment. Urrgh.

Talked to caroline like non-stop after school today. Haha had lots of fun and erhm, some scary incidents. Omg luhhh. My heart almost flew out. It's gonna be so obvious. :/ Shit.

Juniors, Jiayou for tmr! We'll be behind you guys all the way.
Cant wait, :P

Gosh. I should get back to my carbohydrates, raising agents and fats soon.
Urrgh, my sister's being irritating. Suck shit.

Seeya pigs
,merilyn
















i feel it when i see you, when i see you, when i see them, when i think too much, when i'm all alone by myself with only my thoughts to accompany me. i feel it everyday, at the slightest things, at the sappiest songs, at the cheesiest lyrics. i feel it when i see stuff i should have known, when i persuade myself to accept things i should have accepted long ago.

but,
it all goes away at the smallest things, a smile, a msg, anything.
and i can't help loving everybody who's in my life now(:

-nette.
TIRED,

All I can say to describe myself now. ahhhhh, clearly exhausted. need my darling sleep really soon.

Okay, there were COLOURS and Leaders' Invest. i thot we sounded too soft so that's kinda sad, but the music was like love. LI was pretty fun and it was cool seeing all of them. and yay Grace, new head prefect. cooolness. :) loveeeeeee. thinking about sec4s stepping down really makes me realise how fast time passes. it's like july already. :( i guess it wont be too soon, before we find ourselves being the oldest around. okay and thinking about this really makes me feel kinda sad.. i'm so sorry people if yall start to feel sad too. but i just had to let it out. :[

-sighs.

On a random note, i am absolutely and clearly in love (okay, maybe infatuated). Hahahahaha. i find myself smiling to myself alot. Shhhhhhhhh. :DDD
Blah, maybe it'll fade away soon.

My stooopid com died and all of the many many photos and files and whatnots have all said bye to me. Urrgh.

I wish i could snuggle up in my bed for forever.

Ohmy, they're not leaving my thoughts alone.

seeya pigs
,merilyn