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heyy.

had two tests today, geog and emaths, quite ok i guess. school was bleah, except for bio when mstan cut the sheep's heart open which was quite cool but i don't know why i suddenly seem to describe it as just another ordinary event in my school day when obviously we don't slash open hearts everyday.

ohk you know what i shall just shut up here cause sometimes i think i say the wrong things and end up screwing everything up so yeah buhbye hopefully everything will turn out ok.
-nette.
Hello everyone! :D

I'm at bestfriend Regina's dajie's boyfriend's apartment at Harbourfront now, the both of us have the whole place t ourselves. & It's a shophouse, we're in the room attempting to start revising. High sch musical now, i finally understand why C doesnt like vanessa hudgens. Heh and and nd there's like sch tomorrow eww. Cleverly left my byj in school. Gosh feel like there's many many things to do, and so little time. There's history test & emaths on tuesday omg yucks. I guess this week's gna be a really eventful one: C & grace's birthday, tests, junior's starting nationals &all. Oh i think Troy looks good and Sharpay's funny :P

I'm suppose to be doing Coordinate Geometry after all the shopping at vivo just now. But i'm in totally no mood! hi im regina. Okay she typed that nd she has to do partial fractions and stop watching the teevee.

There are so many movies i've yet to watch. I wanna watch: Transformers, HP, The Simpsons etc. Those who are interested t watch with me, you can date me out. Heard from my bro & many others that hp kinda sucked but i still want t watch!

Sigh I'm missing someone badly :'(
Dont know if you'll even be reading this, but if you do, i hope that you're feeling better. It means th world to me to know that you're happy. I can't help but worry & wonder if everything's alright. Gosh.

When there's this person who made a huge diff in your life, you just want the best for that person. And as for yourself, nothing seems to make you happier or more at ease just to know that th person's feeling happy. I guess some things in life are bittersweet. All the fights, pointless arguing & petty cold wars are what bring people closer together. And after it all, it makes me treasure & love the other more than ever.

You know, there're some people in this world that are just so amazing, but they just don't realise it. (:

Okay that's it. Back to reality: Emaths, here i come! :E
Love love love,
Mel
hey babes(: yep i'm back and posting again kekex.

ok i just watched the simpsons movie HAHAHAHAHA ITS HILARIOUS HAHAHA. spider-pig spider-pig! hahahaha. you people should really go watch it, it's really really funny. my sister was like howling with laughter ok. i didn't know whether to join her or to shut her up but in the end i was laughing just as hard so ssshhhh. hahaa.

feeling quite ok now, yep, more than ok. (: i think sometimes closing one eye to things you don't wanna see really helps in tough situations where you don't know what to do. yeah.

and hey. thanks for asking(:

ok i shall share a song someone sent me, a song i've been listening to non-stop since i got it. it's called tongue tied by faber drive and IT ROCKS.

i need a little more luck than a little bit
cause everytime i get stuck the words won't fit
and everytime that i try i get tongue tied
i'll need a little more luck to get me by

i need a little more help than a little bit
like the perfect one word no one's heard yet
cause everytime i try i get tongue tied
i need a little good luck to get me by this time

nightynight people, sweet dreams(: it's like winter here in our usually sunny country now, and i don't think i've seen the sun in a century. i can't feel my fingers =/
-nette.
today, let's talk about expectations.

i guess everybody knows that having hope can really make a lot of difference. like, when all the odds are against you, when you feel like everybody thinks you won't make it, when it feels like you're trying to climb a mountain with nothing but the clothes on your back, it helps to have just that bit of hope. cause it can go a long way.

but on the other hand, too much hope can make you feel like whatever you've done has come up to nothing, especially if the end result is nothing like what you'd expected. (read: disappointed) like, everybody knows this example, if you've studied real hard for a test and you end up failing it, the feeling totally sucks like don't know what. and if you expected someone to treat you in a particular way, but in the end your worst fears come true and it all turns out to be something you thought would never happen. when you want something so much, worked hard for it, are almost in reach of it, but it all falls back down to earth in a matter of days.

and of course, there are the moments where you totally don't expect anything at all, but someone surprises you with a kind word and a listening ear, or a sweet little present and a hug, or a letter and maybe something small. the point is not in the gifts or the actions, but in the thought. when you don't think someone will treat you any differently from other people, but find out that hey, you mean something to someone after all. that feeling is the best(:

so therefore, i conclude: expectations should be as low as possible, hope should be kept inside, and we should just live life not wanting anything. cause expectations, if too high, can slap you in the face when circumstances fall short. and when situations turn out to be better than you've hoped, well hey, you've exceeded your expectations.

and to you: promise me something? promise me that there's something worth staying for.. promise me you'll show me that there's something worth holding on to. is that possible?

-nette.
you say it best, when you say nothing at all(:
shocked that I AM HERE? i damn rarely blog, mostly on friday nights i will cause its my time to relax and do something boliao. many tests coming up! work hard everyone, jiayou:D juniors jiayou okay? support you all all the way, do cedar proud! (though you all damn rubbish always come bully me about chander ! )

oh yeah! I LOVE CHANDER SOOOOOOO MUCH, LOVELOVELOVE<3> when i hear the song more than words i smmile to myself.


i know this post is super rubbish but i like! i so tired now and my buddy is here. :/ sleeping in MY HOUSE. lucky for me, not in the same room ! if not, i would just turn back and slit all my wrists and die. she is a piece of chicken neh neh. x) no one knows how i felt in china man! no one does.. NO ONE. they all say iam being a meanpok for treating her like that? ohmygawwwd like, the 18 days were plain human torture? i cried almost everynight alone, WHO KNOWS ABOUT THAT? still say i mean. i only treat people based on how the treated me, nothing more and nothing less. (some exceptions though) sucker neh lah, grrr!

my butt damn pain. fell down full impact on it when its alr half dead:/ now its so painful, i think i need some painkillers:/ oh noooo. toolazy to blog manxz.
there are some things that i dont mention, thats not because i dont care. its because i care about the impact of those words on others. all i can say that i never looked foward to 4 days later. theres nothing iam hinting now, but i just want some peace this year. dont bother the big hooha, i just want to go home quietly this yr. iam not being nyeh or acting pathetic. i just have to say it out somewhere, here? its that bad that when i think about it tears start to well up. well if you all didnt notice, i control them when bdays are being discussed. thats cause i hated 2006's. sucked big time. i hate. i'd never want another one, by doing that, i should never think about having one. there are mnay tests coming. we should study for them instead. just leave it alone. i want a day like any other day. higher hopes, higher dissappointments. dread tuesday. big time. not even you can cheer me up with your cute deeds. though i smile at just the thought of it? not trying to doubt your efforts or reject your efforts, its that i dont wish to accept it. iam not worth your hardwork. if i did anything to dissappoint you, with my reactions, i will make it up to you. dont trusts in having a happy birthday. cause i rarely had one.

i like it when you smile to yourself after i bought you little presents,
not letting me know that you're happy. somehow you cant keep your smile to youself.
and when turned to look into those hazel eyes of yours,
you switched into a serious expression and told me' anything wrong?'
i love it when you give those cute expressions.

i like it when you put on a straight face after you read a mushy letter from me,
not letting me know of how you'd react to such words i wrote.
and when i was just about to fret over it,
you came into the canteen and tapped me on the back,
returning a letter far much sweeter than mine.
i love it when you behave so weirdly.

i like the way you are, every single action sets me laughing at your reatrded acts.
i love it when you make me laugh,
i like it when you make me chuckle to your cuteness that you dont realised.
i love it when you say nothing at all.
with those precious eyes of yours,
i see everything you long to say.
silence is comfortable between true friends.
<3>


i'll keep the love that keeps us strong.
a friend will not say never, cause the welcome will not end.
though its hard to let you go, in the Father's hands we know,
that a lifetime not too long to live as FRIENDS<3




you;re so worth it. :D
bye! sucha long post :/

10:35:00 PM -

Didnt actually want to blog before this. But whatever.

Today was officially suck-shit day. :(
Started off by dozing off uncontrollably during ssgeog and ended with some nonsense feeling that i dont wish to talk about. Nyeh.

And wellwell, bombed with dont-know-how-many tests next week.
D :

Please allow me to survive next week, and the week after and the week after after.

And i've just sneezed like 5 times in a row. :/ My nose's gonna falll off soon.

I know(dont know) why i'm feeling so nyeh.
It's been like that for so long,
It's getting on my nerves.
I badly want to do something,
But i feel damn helpless.

Urrrgh, irritated. Dont wanna blog anymore.
shit, did i just do sth wrong?

Jeanette, cheer up! Can always talk to me when anything's going wrong. :)

seeya pigs
,merilyn

Thursday, July 26, 2007

9:51:00 PM -

my friends tried to tell me to be strong
i bet you didnt think that i would see
the postcard that you wrote
with the stupid little note
something wasn't quite right about it
i want to see you cry
like i did a thousand times
now you're losing me
you're losing me now
-----------------------
stop telling me you need more time
tired of the same old line
better make a move or you are gonna find, i ain't taking it
cause you know it's wrong
better let him know it's time to go, you're moving on
baby you don't know how close i am to being gone

really known you long enough
i can only take so much
tell me if i have your heart (how do you really love?)
baby you know it isn't fair
you expect me to be there
but we never get nowhere

i don't wanna hear no more
if you're sure, that you really love me
i don't wanna hear no more
out the door if you still don't know
i've been there for you
and you know it's true
you belong with me
what you gonna do?

-nette.

Tuesday, July 24, 2007

7:41:00 PM -

and suddenly, everything feels almost alright again.
almost.

(: but that's really good enough.

read this somewhere: i'm dreaming of a past reality, a future probability, but a present impossibility. makes a whole lot of sense doesn't it?

i guess, let's just see how things go.

but for now, i've gotten almost everything out, and i'm smiling again(:
-nette.

Monday, July 23, 2007

7:20:00 PM -

Yoohooo. Havent been here for quite a whileeee. The main computer died and it's causing me alot of problems. Urrgh.

Nothing much recently. Oh, rather grossed out with certain people. Ewwwww.

Today was a baddd day. nothing much just that the whole mood was so down right from on the way to school. : ( I'm so glad today's coming to an end.

Random:

1. To you, i'm certainly disgusted. I've lost everything i used to have and hope for. You make me understand the word - Hopeless.


2. To you, you're really making me annoyed and i dont actually bother about what you think or feel. You dont actually make a difference now you know.
   
3. To you, you know you are freakingggggg cute! I'm going mad.

And i do need some sleep, Ms Tan commented that i looked like a panda. :/

Anyways, here's some RHD photos. Not many, and i look real un-nice in some. :/

That's all. Gotta go batheeee and get some sleeeeep.

Oh does anyone want to buy t-shirts, got different colours and simple designs. 12 bucks per piece. Helping my bro sell (i wonder if any will be sold at all) , it's for charity! : D

And i'm so wanting some adidas merchandise now. Anything, i love!

seeya pigs
,merilyn

Friday, July 20, 2007

10:09:00 PM -

hey babes(:

haha went to watch the match today ohmygosh ZONE FINALS i can't believe it. damn proud of you people :D hahaha we cheered until our brains had no more oxygen left and i think i now know what it feels like to have high blood pressure.

haha it was racial harmony day today! wheee~! wore a punjabi suit which was like so much easier to wear than the sari hehhehs. i'd be sitting there happily stoning and everybody would be going mad cause their saris were dropping. (:

but everytime i try to make you smile
you're always going feeling sorry for yourself
everytime i try to make you laugh
you can't, you're too tough
you think you're loveless
is that too much that i'm asking for?

then after the match, we came back to watch performances. ok no correction, me mer & c didn't get to watch the performances cause mrlim said cannot but in the end he allowed the others to go anyways but didn't tell us HMPH. so we changed back into our costumes and camwhored for a bit.. had reaaally bad cramps so i was kinda sitting/squatting the whole way. hehs. thanks for climbing up and down the stairs for me yeah? (:

then i slept for a bit, took a nap cause i was so tired. then after that waited for tkw to finish some weird dance that was so abstract we decided to just enjoy seeing tkw dancing anyhow. hahaha.

ok. xin ruan already. you are soo lucky.

and so i'll be going up to malaysia tonight cause my relatives just came back.. sorry for missing training again ): jiayou yeah? tuesday's a big big day :D so i'll be sleeping at 3plus again cause i'll cheong my homework tonight.. haha i think it's gonna be quite hard, my eyes are kinda dying on me already. hahaha.

ok i shall go do homework now, hopefully i don't fall asleep on the desk.
-nette. i do think you're getting greedy.

Wednesday, July 18, 2007

9:51:00 PM -

can't you see that you'd lie to yourself?
you can't see the world through a mirror
it won't be too late when the smoke clears
cause i, i am still here.

i had a friend once. we both agreed that actually, if you wore your bag low, it would actually do good to your back. cause then you wouldn't be hunched, cause the weight of the bag would pull your back back and make it curve the other way. we don't talk to each other now, but i know she can make me laugh at the stupidest things and unglam myself beyond hope.

i had a friend once. i thought i was her best friend. i thought she was mine. everyday i'd walk her down the entire walkway to the gate to accompany her, and then we'd sit there for a while and talk and tell each other stuff. no wait, she'd tell me stuff about her, and i'd listen. and then i'd accompany her until the last possible moment, then i'd say bye and rush up the walkway to go for training. i abandoned my clique for a few weeks cause of her, and guess what? she turned out to be a complete liar, that everything she'd ever told me was a lie. and i actually believed whatever she said up till the moment where my teacher had to told me my dear friend had been lying to me. and after that i didn't really trust anybody anymore.

i have a friend. even though i don't talk to her alot, i know that we're quite ok. she's a listening ear whenever i need one, and it's surprising how much i can tell her. it's like everything just comes out, like water flowing out of a tap. and even though many people have bad impressions or experiences or encounters with her, she's one of the nicest persons i've ever met.

i have a friend. except, i don't really know you now. i mean, we still talk, but it's like you've changed. alot. you've done stuff i'd never thought you'd do, but of course, we always go, " oh it's ok. let her lah." but it's not really getting ok any longer. we used to be really close, but you've gotten into a world of your own. and most of the time i'm not really in it.

i have a friend. and the thing about this friend, is that i can tell her everything. anything under the sun. and i know she understands. and i am really, really happy cause of that.

i have a friend. she's closer to other people than she is to me, but i know that whenever i need someone to talk to, she's always there. and i know that she won't say a word about anything i've told her. and i know that whatever i say, she just gets it.

i have a friend. and, i don't know what to think about this friend anymore. she's a big big part of my life, but i don't know if i'm a big big part of hers. i thought we were really really good friends, but i don't think that i wanna think about it anymore cause well, i don't really know what she's thinking anymore.

and then i have a friend. she makes me laugh, and it's kinda surprising what we can say to each other and get pissed with each other and then in the end we never take whatever is said to heart. and again, i can tell this friend everything.

that's it for tonight people i have to go sleep now. nighty night.
-nette.

9:04:00 PM -

heyyy babes(:

my mum went to buy RHD costumes for my sis & i today, we went through a whole fitting and trying time before dinner. it's really nice, haha can't wait for friday :D oh oh i'm not wearing a sari anymore, sorry kw! can't teach you how to wear, but my mum says it's reaaaally difficult to wrap.. so. good luck(:

and. i wore the RHD costume and stepped on the weighing scale. and i'm like 48 kg now. (i used to be 50kg btw.) can't believe it i think i've really been starving myself or something, don't even eat recess now when i used to spend money like water on food. and btw, i was wearing the costume + bangles + shorts + necklace when i stepped onto the scale.

and then aft dinner, i weighed myself again. and i'm 47.5kg. and therefore i conclude that i know the cure to losing weight.

wanna blog a whole lot more, but i think later lah. i'm gonna go do homework first. (:

some people stop, and some people stare

i'm hearing whispers that you no longer care

should i stay, should i turn away?

stop playing games now you know it's not fair.

-nette.

7:11:00 PM -

Hahah hello all ! Today's the National track thingy, i hope the trackers do super well :D I think Cedar's track is really uber kewl. Oh i just heard that they got 2nd overall for both divisions wow!

School was zzz, as usual. Did a survey which was somewhat like a test. Haha got the english paper and i finished it by like 1215 & zonked out 8( Dam tired, i tell you. And the weather was ooh lala.

Juniors won, yay! They're doing really well, all the way!

After that, me c & merilyn went to havoccccccccc during lunch. Haha we freaked when we realised we were the only FEMALES at kfc zomg. Never fail to go crazy with the jiellys, i love!

During and after trng was really funny! Nette me c mer & tam laughed like crazy. Because of the boon poo kiat nonsense. Hahaha and and and we learnt never ever to put Caroline & Ngteng together, they'll come up with some nonsense that is...you get what i mean. Boonbina** (Inside joke) zzomg.

RHD is coming! Tomorrow will be shopping for sari day!

Tammy & I were talking about our LAKSA date together this weekend, in the car just now. Oh my the thought of laksa is whoa!

Okay before i end off;

Jenny; The Click Five

She calls me baby

then she wont call me

says she adores me

and then ignores me

Jenny, what's the problem?

She keeps her distance

and sits on fences

puts up resistance

and builds defenses

Jenny, whats the problem?

You keep me hanging on the line

everytime you change your mind

First you say you wont

then you say you will

you keep me hanging on

but we're not moving on

we're standing still

Jenny, you've got me on my knees

Jenny, It's killing me

She needs her own space

she's playing mind games

ends up at my place

saying that she's changed

Jenny, what's the problem?

I'm trying to read between the lines

you got me going out of my mind

First you say you wont

then you say you will

you keep me hanging on

but we're not moving on

we're standing still

Jenny, you've got me on my knees

Jenny, it's killing me

Me & Tamz current craze. Love the spas garbage woman.

Okay bye for now! & xb is rather good looking, stop denying it my dear friends! >:D

Love love love,

Mel

Tuesday, July 17, 2007

9:31:00 PM -

hello everyone.
shocked? that iam ACTUALLY blogging? okay you know why? cause this blog's whole meaning is to hold the 4 of us tgt, so through all of your posts, i decided that i shall actually post ONE, to erm. blend in? getting lazier day by day to blog, sometimes quite waste time. besides, iam SO DAMN TIRED! so, this is a very very precious post. (:

1) i zombied to school today. like totally? all because of SOMEONE, making me reach home like, 0012? haha! but in anyway, you did your best. you gave your best shot, dont care about what others say about you and continue to work harder yeah? dont be too sad about it too! (:
and then i was so blur today that when veron's supposed to hop on my 853... ( due to the cold air con, the windows were completed frosty so i couldnt see anything at all. so, veron hopped on to the bus from the front door, while i went down by the back. how wow can that be?

2)i want to work hard in my studies, man bio wasnt what i wanted those kindof results ): esp maths haha and chem zomg. die die die. oral was so funneh, ms wan never fails to make me laguh.

3) nette : we will go through this tgt. i know i havent been through it before, but my plank of wood is somehow like that too. hope i can give you some advice though kekex. whatever it is, dont go crazy and die. HAHA i know you wont but just, i dont know what to say cause i cant reveal much and i cant mention much? but this post is kindof because of you that made me actually LOG IN INTO BLOGGER?

4) jiayou juniors. all the way. all your best. all my support.
( iam not as bochap as you all think i am ! )

5) feel like plaing piano now.

6) my birthday is come come come oh so coming, 15 is such a BWEATIFUL number worrr.

7) i feel super disgusted by food now, esp chocolates?

8) i miss want love leo ku.

so, there you go!
she damn bloody ugly , take my sweet lover away?

this is much better ! with my PRETTY FACE, but most of them say i look like ghost, and they say leo ku damn scared? no right, he must be overjoyed man!


he even knows about harry potter trend nowadays!

okay iam off to sleep!

bye takecare everyone, i'll post in..... ..... ... days time. haha!

byexzx , <3>

7:37:00 PM -

i cannot take it anymore omg.
feeling super stressed now, if i was talking i bet all the damn would come out. oops. it just did.

just came back from school not long ago, super super tired. lotta things on my mind, wayy too lazy to type them out. haha.

had a heart to heart with c and mer just now, can't believe i've had heart to heart talks with like 4 people in two days? haha. i guess talking is really the best way to get things off your mind. thanks for cheering me up everybody, i really needed that(:

and.i don't know what to think anymore, and i don't particularly want to. don't feel like blogging nowadays cause i've got much more on my mind and i'm wayy too lazy to type them out and anyways once i open a new post all the words just fade away and my mind goes blank.

someone said that writing letters to ___ was like talking to a plank of wood. i replied that at least the plank of wood doesn't hit you back. cause that hurts.

and tkw, i'm starting to get not hungry either. (: haha. didn't eat recess at all, wow.

but when i need you
you're almost here
and i know, that's not enough
but when i'm with you
i'm close to tears
cause you're only almost here

bruised and battered by your words
dazed and shattered how it hurts
haven't i always loved you?

-nette.

Sunday, July 15, 2007

11:55:00 PM -

Hey people. I know it's late and there's school in like 7 hours' time, and i'm like totally dreading it.



BUT......... (drumroll)

i have to show this.

Love's in the air.

Whoohooo.

Stay tuned for better ones! I'm swimming in a sea of love. Hahahaha.

Seeya pigs

,merilyn!

credits to my sister. : )

11:05:00 PM -

Yay i just received the photos taken yesterday from Aunty Cherry! :D

So being a lazybum, I'll post like one.

14th July 2007; Daddy's grand 50th birthday at this Chinese restaurant

This is a group photo. Haha look, all the people on top are wearing pink/red (:

Anyhow, we're not related. The 4 families are just super duper close.

Okay I don't feel like blogging anymore bye

Mel

7:03:00 PM -

hey babes(:

just came back from tuition.. you know what, even though it's not that much of a drag and it's actually kinda fun cause i have crazy bimbo classmates, just the thought of tuition makes the whole day miserable. hahahaha! but it feels super good to be sitting here typing this after tuition cause i have zero homework heh heh heh and i can do anything i want now :D

oh oh i watched goal 2 yesterday! hahaha. cause the daddy bought it from chinaa.. hehs. it's like a mega long football match. hahaha. but it's nice.. soccer rocks. i only have one issue with the whole show though: why couldn't munez go to liverpool instead? i see no gerrard at all ): but i see plenty of beckham. eeyur.

to tkw: weii. cannot give up k? you'll get better, trust me. the attacks will end. i pray for you k? (: takecare you brat.

ha. i think you think that i don't know. i know alot. more than you think i do.
omg what's happening ):
ok i shall cheer myself up.
ok i must cheer myself up.
you know what. why do i think i'll never be able t fill that space?
-nette(:

1:42:00 PM -

Hello everyone!

I'm super bored, so i decided not to be lazybum & upload the photos that are wayyyy outdated. Uh i didn't arrange the photos in order so like they're in mess.


I've got a story about my favourite girls
The 7 of us at Nura's birthday. I love!

Nair & me >:B We took this while we were walking !

Nura's feet is missing! :(

Soleil & Hui xin

Make up campfire night, half of 3o

Haha naughty Lin xin!
Faith th bimboooooo! :D
Camwhores find every opportunity t take photos

In the chalet

Flag Day, Faith loves this photo!

Lunch at Far east! With Soleil, Nura, Afiqah, Faith & Hui xin.
Hahah
Huixin <333
Oh my god. Found this photo in my comp & burst out laughing! :D

Donation cans! We were bored & hungry so we did this while waiting for Macs to open for breakfast.




:D

No more!

Haha I haven't started on my homework at all. D: Don't feel like doing.

Okay i shall go shower now, bye!

-Mel

Friday, July 13, 2007

10:07:00 PM -

Get well soon, Korwoong! :(

When i heard about it ccab, i'd a huge shock. Was super duper worried for th brat. Kw please takecare alright? No more diets, eat more more more :B Take care & must must must stay healthy! I wanna see you being th spas ol' kw on Monday.

Seems like many people're falling sick, Ngteng is running a high fever. & there are many many absentees everyday. Th class is so empty. Everyone, take care & don't fall sick!

Grace's speech was superb! :D She's coolness. Head prefect material!

Trng tomorrow. But i'll not be going 'cause i'll be going to the polyclinic for checkup tmr. With my brother, early early early in the morning. Quite worried actually, i hope that my foot can recover asap so i can train properly. Ngteng & i are so motivated to train hard, we'll jiayou together! :D

Ohyes, congrats to Linxin for her Javelin event! I wonder how people can throw the javelin for such a long distance, it seems real hard. && Today's Hui xin's 3000m, i hope she did well too (:

Cancelled Patsy today, had t celebrate dad's birthday this evening. So we went t eat eat eattttt together yum. Dad's gonna be 50 in less than 2hours time. It's amazing how time flies, isn't it? He has more and more white hair sprouting out already. And like he refuses to dye his hair.

Don't really feel like blogging anymore, i really hope Kw's feeling alright now. It's so worrying! Bathing time now. I'm feeling quite low for don't know what reason. Which is strange, because things are going pretty fine lately.

Must be pms.

/Mel

8:37:00 PM -

do you know what it feels like
loving someone who's in a rush to throw you away?

ok big news of the day: tkw tried to scare us all to death by forgetting how to breathe. aiyohh.. see lah. drink strawberry milk for dinner lah. then come and give us all heart attack. -.- get well soon you brat, i'm gonna start force-feeding you some real meat.

hmm so, the rest of today was kinda normal.
NO WAIT. not normal!

grace ang poo yin=head prefect 07-08 WOOHOO! :D

hmm so, had physics test after school while everybody was going yay its friday can go out and play. and then after that went for li rehearsal, (which i dont think i know how to spell but never mind) and wah i wanna say alot of things about the video but never mind i shall keep my mouth shut.

then went to train for abit, ran around the court not really sweating much. but had stuff on my mind so i decided to go run and dragged three other idiots with me HEH. and then i ended up being the only one running, the rest all pangseh-ed me. ended up running three rounds only cause the parents came to bring us home. wanted to run somemore when i got back but then when i bent down to pick up a file, something hot and painful went up my throat and it hurt alot and then i thought maybe it was because i (only) ate a piece of honeydew for lunch. and then dinner was ready and it was chicken rice (HEHHEHHEHHEHHEHHEHHEH) so i went to eat. i don't starve myself like tkw does. (:

i sat outside on the bench next to the pond, and stared at the water and the ripples. noticed that the fish food was like floating around in circles, and no matter what happened, no two particles ever got stuck together permenantly. sure, those at the walls got stuck there with each other forever, but other than those lucky few, no other particles stayed together. they just kept on floating apart, no matter how close they ever got. and suddenly i felt like the one particle that was drifting the furthest away.

i guess i didn't make it clear enough when i said i'd wait.

one day you're here
next you are gone.

-nette. a healthy not-starving nette.

8:34:00 PM -

Ohkay, back from a not-so-good day.

-flips the calendar.. Friday the 13th.

No wonder.

We even mentioned the date in the morning and said sth good happened last year. Urrgh.

Boohoo, poor brat must have had a hard time! Seeing you like that is freaking saddening luhhhh. And you havent been okay since last few days. You better, eat more and rest well! Dont ever let this happen again i tell you.

Dont worry cause the world loves you. Dont worry about anything else cause your health's really important. And dont worry cause i care and will be there! 3P loves you toooooo. <3

Caroline and i were suspecting that she was the cause of your attack, cause of all the wrong things she said during fnn remedial. Cause she made you laugh too hard that it started. Is it? I hope not. :/ haha

Me: Eh you better go like hospital to see the doc or sth.
Caroline: Yah.. Like maybe if cannot cure, can know what's wrong.

Tsk.

Whatever, tkw rest well and be back at school a stronger brat! Dont cry anymoreeee.!

And thank you to those who helped me stop crying.

Had quite a heart-to-heart chat with line, and talked about stuffs that others might not be able to understand. :/ Screwed. And i havent gotten ready for RHD. :[ bierry did a great job for her speech today. : )

But still, thank god that the brat is safe and sound. Dont scare us again! Hope you're not too affected. Dont care about everyone around who's being irritating. Ohno just saw your blog, be strong(hope it wont come back agn, urrgh), and stay happieeeeeeee. :] kinda affected by your 'emo' posts! dont get so stressed up alright. Life'll definitely get better for you! You cant give up ohkay. promise!

Love the brat alot, alot! <3
(i know i sound naggy, but!)

seeya pigs
,merilyn

Tuesday, July 10, 2007

7:03:00 PM -

heybabes(:

so. today was a kinda normal day, double maths ohmygosh my back can dieee. sit there draw graphs the whole two periods ): hahaha ok not the whole two periods lah, crapped abit with mrschew before we asked her some stupid qns and she went -.- and then we had to start on graphs. hahaha.

went out for lunch with caroline mer & kw just now, kw has gone positively mad(: crazy. nv seen her like that before, kinda funny actually HAHAHAHA. ok i think if i see her nyehhing now i'd laugh. hahaha. then the art people came by and we played the make-faces-without-laughing-and-try-to-make-other-people-laugh-at-the-same-time game. which obviously we aren't good at. hehs.

then came back, just finished drawing a graph. gonna finish up on the other one then start studying physics heh.

random: i have three things (zits or spots or whatever) on my face that are aligned so well that my nose becomes the asymptote. i am well and truly serious.

buhbye(:

-nette.

Monday, July 9, 2007

10:44:00 PM -

Yoohoo.

I'm terribly tired. Cant stand school. :[

But jiayou for the match tmr, juniors!

And looking at the video makes me smile unknowingly. : DD

oh no i cant embed cause it's too huge and covers the side. : (

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=oht5T3pOpXw

yawns.


seeya pigs
,merilyn

Sunday, July 8, 2007

10:55:00 PM -

Yoohoooooo.

I grew fatter today, i bet. Binged at seoul garden with tammy and line. Had stupid and funy moments and ate till almost cannot take it. Really tired now. Feel like a 200% slackerxz nowadays, but not doing anything! Urrgh. But, finally i had a chance to go out, what a loserrrrr i am.

And i havent bought JJ new album. How how how! Have been bugging my bro to buy for me.
: ( but to no avail. At least i bought the concert vcd today. :] so Yay. and omg listening to JJ's voice really can make you melt.

Okay we had a hard time trying to find places to camwhore. Not to mention we tried acting like tourists to take pictures.

Sorry Grandma, never go visit you today. : ( guilty.

Random:

1. i like the new blogskin.
2. merilyn has (insert negative number) sense of punctuality.
3. my eyes feel really sore. urrgh.
4. i'm so irritated with what's going on. like just shut up everyone. no one needs to understand what i'm talking abt.

okay i'm getting really tired, and my stupiddd eyes are dying on me.

Serious note:

I cant stand schoooool. :[

seeya pigs

,merilyn

12:25:00 AM -

hello people!
iam overjoyed today cause i found huanhuanai ep 6+7 ! and iam watching it now. i havent been blogging nowadays cause iam just TOOOO LAZY. i even changed the blogskin anyhow-ly. if you all dont like, can go change it. sorry :/ verno is clinging on my thumb for the past 2 days. and iam loving it, cause it looks too stupid to be true. HAHA.

korwoong the brat gave me a cinnamorroll head/ blanket. its on my lap now, loving it more and more! really, i havent been blogging.
had cip today quite fun then went to ps w joey and audrey. had lotsa fun. :D
i like stars. i think they are very cool. because its only when you look and stare at the night sky patiently, they will emerge out. so i think, they will exist for those who bother to look, and those people will enjoy the natural beauty and light that is given out. they're there everyday. its just whether you choose to realise it or not, just like somethings in life. chinese oral was kinda shiat. but i hope its okay.

shall blog some photos. the blog's filled w words now.



my stolen mongolian fusion western from mag's class.

fbt giants.

i look prettier right!


do you call this mirror image?

i say you hot.

i say you cute.

olden days.

aha.

dead dog- honey (missed)

okay back to huanhuan ai. byebye!

Saturday, July 7, 2007

5:14:00 PM -

mood: and suddenly i don't feel important anymore.

ok i just posted a bunch of stuff that i took down cause i don't know the whole meaning of the whole post and i think i should know what i'm writing about before i show it to the whole world so i took it down and maybe cause i just don't feel like explaining it to anybody. and maybe cause, i don't feel that way anymore. so i felt bad posting that cause suddenly you turn the tables and i feel guilty for even thinking bad stuff. but ohwells, maybe next time i'll have the courage to let whatever i think be left here even if i don't think that way anymore. so that everybody might know, that no matter what you do, you won't be able to please everybody in your life. least of all yourself. i'm glad that's clear. i know you're not gonna tell me anyways, but.. ohwells. just so you know i suppose.

should i stay, or should i go? sometimes moving on with the rest of your life, starts with goodbye. sometimes life's so bittersweet. lately nothing i do ever seems to please you, but i can't let you walk away.
`and when you have no words to say, song lyrics are your best friends.

and i just realised the blogskin's rachel bilson. is it? she's coool.
-nette.

Friday, July 6, 2007

11:04:00 PM -

skin changed!
bad moood, unhappy, very unhappy, very not satisfied. unfair, abandoned, alone.
i dont like.

bye!

<3 mrs ku.

9:28:00 PM -

ni haooooz!

hahahaha i thought today would never end.. i mean. i thought lessons would never end. hahaha. suppppeerr tired nowadays, don't know why. guess i need to start sleeping at 9.30 hehs.

tightened my braces yesterday can't eat anything hard today my teeth are aching like don't know what don't anybody dare hit me in the face today or else i will really punch you back hurts like don't know what I WANNA EAT ICE-CREAM MUAHAHAHHAA.


ok i think umbrella's a nice song. hahahaha. but rihanna's legs are fat i can't believe she insured them for a million bucks which insurance company is that stupid her legs aren't that nice i think heidi klum rocks even more. hahaha.

and and an jing by jay chou is a nice song too! hahaha. just listened to it for the first time in a long long time and the chorus was sooo sweeet. :D hahahaha. this line: 我会学着放弃你是因为我太爱你 . its like the most awww line i've ever seen. or heard. or read. hehs.

ok going for some amazing race thingy with the family tomorrow at NINE-THIRTY in the morning at SENTOSA ohmygosh. i'll either melt or just sweat my pants off. God bless the weather tomorrow.

and and i'm not paranoid anymore! cause cause i have nothing to be paranoid about. :D hahaha yes i suddenly had this amazing revelation when i was bathing. HA. good things come in the bath.

ok that sounds wrong.

is there anyone out there
cause it's getting harder and harder to breathe

ok thank God for the auto-saving thingy cause my com went whacko on me when i tried to post woohoo and nothing's gone hehs ok i gotta go now bye people.

you still have me!(:

-nette.

Thursday, July 5, 2007

7:26:00 PM -

Hellooooo.

Gah i havent blogged in such a long time! Too tired and lazy. Didnt go to school today, had a slight sore throat and there's chinese oral tmr. 0_0 really really tired and havent been able to finish up some work that i owe. Boohoo. I'm sucha tired person i think i can give up alot of things just to sleep.

Okay i was feeling so crappy on Tuesday? Ewww i wanted to like box/kill everyone around me. Urrgh. Mood swings brought about by the time of the month i guess. Sorry. Or maybe there were some stuffs bothering me luhhh, i dont know. Ahh whatever, dont wanna think about it.

Feeling quite 'empty' lately..

I wonder why.

Some stuffs just cant be said. Forget it.

Tmr's the day for the juniors. Jiayou C'div. You guys will shine, prove what you've got to everyone else out there. Wont be able to go watch, what a pity! :( Do your best, best, best!

Randommmm:

1. my passion for maths is flying away, because of you. that's what i feel, at least.

2. i'm gonna do what i can. i will show.

3. sorry caroline, about the locker.

4. my life's getting as boring as ever.

5. i dream about being a chef, but am afraid.

6. who in the world are all the anonymous taggers?

7. i miss hongkong like dont know what. i think i originated from hk in my past life. you know we always say what we like/dislike is related to our past lives? lol silly but i choose to fantasize about it. i wanna speak canto, i wanna study there, i wanna live there, shop there and blah.

8. i think i'm an awfully boring person.

9. i dont like to talk, it's so exhausting. i prefer to be a listener.

10. there's oral tmr and i'm afraid i'll be ultra freaked out that i faint or pee in my pants or do sth outrageous.

11. oh no, i havent bought JJ's new album, i should kill myself.

12. i think anyone who's reading this must be thinking i'm stupid, bored and crazy and i should stop.

seeya pigs

,merilyn

hongkong, hongkong, hongkong!

Wednesday, July 4, 2007

8:39:00 PM -

hey babes(:

think of ten names and write down what you wanna say to them right now. don't write the names, just whatever's on your mind :D

1. every dark cloud has a silver lining. jiayou! its all gonna turn out alright(:
2. boo! (: how ya doing? hope to see you soon yeah?
3. stop haunting us you piece of crap.
4. why'd you go marry her? pffft. ahh wells, its ok. you're still my husband(:
5. i kinda miss you, but it's not as bad as i thought. i'm glad we're still ok(:
6. you're nicer! and and i can talk to you better now. little weird sometimes but it's much much better(:
7. i hope we do ok. yes we will! (:
8. what if I said you could? if i can't make you as happy then.. i don't know why i'm still here.
9. jiayou! i know you'll win! we'll be behind you all the way! (:
10. i guess. just have faith that everything's gonna turn out for the best. no matter what choice is taken. yeah?

ok done! hahaha. go ahead and guess which one's for who! hahahaha. this is fun! :D

i'm a big big girl, in a big big world
it's not a big big thing, if you leave me
but i do do feel, that i do do will
miss you much.

-nette.

12:33:00 AM -

I'm handin' over everything that I've got

Cause I wanna have a really true love

Don't ever wanna have to go & give you up

Stay up till 4 in the morning and the tears are pouring

& I want to make it worth the fight

But is it?

Note: Boring post ahead. Read only if you've nothing better to do :E

Sudden urge to use the comp now, it's already 12+ as i'm typing this. Had tuition just now, it was horribly boring and i was so glad when it was over. I just couldn't focus at all. Took a nap til 1157 just now while waiting..

:D I guess its true that one should never place too high expectations, because when things don't go your way, the feeling just sucks t the max. I've learnt that sometimes what i want, is not what others want even though it seems like they do. Sometimes people say one thing, but mean another thing altogether.

When you lost something that you love, only then will you realise how important it truly is. People often take things for granted & some people won't treasure or acknowledge your significance until you're gone. Like only when you lose things or people who you are so used to seeing everyday.

Sometimes when your friends tell you 'i love you', you start to question where their true intentions lie. Do they really mean it..? Or are they simply saying it to make your day, to please you? It's just so complicating.

Aaah i'm so messed up with life these days. But face it, some things are not what they seem. Shut up about all the lets-hold-hands-and-be-merry thing, i'm living in a society laden with backstabbers.

I'm off to catch some zzzs now! This post is so random i just feel like deleting it when i scrolled up, like right now :O

Mel

Monday, July 2, 2007

9:29:00 PM -

way back into love. music and lyrics.

i've been living with a shadow overhead
i've been sleeping with a cloud above my bed
i've been lonely for so long
trapped in the past, i just can't seem to move on

i've been hiding all my hopes and dreams away
just in case i ever need 'em again someday
i've been setting aside time
to clear a little space in the corners of my mind

all i wanna do is find a way back into love
i can't make it through without a way back into love
oh oh oh

i've been watching but the stars refuse to shine
i've been searching but i just don't see the signs
i know that it's out there
there's gotta be something for my soul somewhere
i've been looking for someone to shed some light
not just somebody just to get me through the night
i could use some direction
and i'm open to your suggestions

all i wanna do is find a way back into love
i can't make it through without a way back into love
and if i open my heart again
i guess i'm hoping you'll be there for me in the end
there are moments when i don't know if it's real
or if anybody feels the way i feel
i need inspiration
not just another negotiation

all i wanna do is find a way back into love
i can't make it through without a way back into love
and if i open my heart to you
i'm hoping you'll show me what to do
and if you help me to start again
you'll know that i'll be there for you in the end

Sunday, July 1, 2007

2:15:00 PM -

Hello everyone! :D

It's been so long! Haha haven't been blogging for many weeks, oops. I don't want our blog t be dead. This week's pretty insane, most of us had 4 t 5 tests omg many of us stayed up til th wee hours to finishing studying. Amaths was B( ! One more t go; Geog.

Yesssss monday's a holiday. :D Ha! Finally. Really thankful for th long weekend, cause like we can finally take a break. Nothing much happened recently, except for th match for the juniors.

Jiayou Juniors! I believe yall can do it, it's not th end yet so don't give up. We'll always be supporting yall, believe in yourself :D

Coughing like mad lately :O it's starting t really annoy me seriously. Everyone seems to be getting this cough thing. Was looking through th photos my uncle took while he was in Africa, and there's this urge for me to go overseas. It's been 8 years since I've been overseas, and that was to Italy & Switzerland. & Like I was supposed to go Philippines w my family friends this June for a holiday, but it was cancelled cos my dad couldn't take leave. Man.

I don't mean to whine but I really really need a break from S'pore. I wanna go overseas! :(

Byee! Will be uploading photos taken at Uncle's bbq later.
/Mel